I am from

I am from my mistakes making me who I am
But only those from witch I’ve learned
And never having a single regret

I am from rainy days in July
Watching all the old fade
Feeling the rain softly kiss my skin
And rinse away the pain

I am from hiding behind the couch, in a closet, or under a bed
Squeezing my teddy with all the strength I have
Praying for mommy and daddy would stop
To swearing I’ll never believe

I am from wanting to make a difference
To impact someone’s life so immensely that they view the world in a different way
But hoping to achieve more

I am from standing up for what I believe in
And never backing down
No matter who says what

I am from choking on others ignorance
Judgments lashed upon me
All because nobody else knows who they are

I am from being forced to grow up
Being a mom to those I cannot stand any longer
Taking care of them, allowing them to be children
To them not appreciating a thing I did for them

I am from crying myself to sleep every single night
Putting up my walls
Never letting my guard down no matter who it is
Putting on a mask
And remaining strong, not because I want to, but because I have to

I am from being invisible to all, and fading into the background
To being known for who I am
And not what another thinks I should be

I am from opinions being shoved down my throat
And being told what is wrong and right
To becoming everyone’s greatest fear
And developing a mind of my own

I am from cold skin and coffins
And rivers of tears
To flowers and butterflies
And being able to face all of my greatest fears

Have you any idea why a raven is like a writing desk?

They say, "life must go on," in the day that is true. But at night life seems as if to come to a jarring hault.Sometimes.. tears say all that there is to be said. Love is a waist-land of promises in vain. But, love, like the inner workings of the mind, is rarely simple. Perhaps, that is why many seem to only love a short time. True love, it's there, it's real, and hard to find. Scars never heal forever. Broken heart, well they're never mended. Love doesn't always end happily ever after, even if one still loves, with such a burning passion raging inside of them. Memories can sometimes be so sharp tehy leave us bleeding, writhing in pain, suffocating in the lies that once you found truth in. In life.. you're born to lose the ones you love, for if you hadn't lost them, you'd never know how much they truly meant.

As he peered out across the barren arctic tundra separated from the group, he heard blood curdling screams escape from the roaring of the wind. His heart pounded against his chest, he was frozen in fear. There was adrenalin coursing through his veins, his body telling him to run away as fast as he could, to forget the others. Should he do as his body told him, or should he do what his conscious told him, would they come back for him?
His warm breath turned to fog around him; he began running, faster and faster. Each breath more intense, a pain so great in his chest it was slowing his breathing. Each breath he took felt like a nail being hammered into his chest. The fear overwhelmed him, tightening his muscles, making it hard to move. He had to keep going; they knew he was there, somewhere, but where?

Tragedy can be measured
by the amount of happiness taken away
Elusion is our only protection
As we fall victim to its prey

Happiness may end
While tragedy begins
Today is the beginning

Happiness fills me with a touch of sadness.
By that I mean I know it can't last.
Beauty decays, laughter subsides
When will the stones be cast?
Is tomorrow the end?

False hope
Fake laughter
No more living happily ever after

A broken promise
Soon becomes a lie

Living in a world I hate
Tears crashing down around me
What more can I create?

Shadows casted upon these blood
spattered walls
Images behind these closed eyes
Trying not to let these tears fall

Closed curtains fall,
Lies dragged into the light,
For those whose promises are revealed
for what they are to all

Judgments thrown at me
All based upon false accusations
and their minds biggest temptations
When will they really see?
All they’re doing is hurting me.

One last breath
Draws into these lungs
The last ounce of courage
To stand up for myself
Drifts away
All my hope fades

Metal hits the ground,
No more sorrow,
No more sound.

A words just a word
unless you mean what you say

A lie can be the truth
if you choose to believe it

Pain is good
If you're foolish enough to let it come your way

So bear with your sorrows
you brought them on yourself

Don't look my way
for any kind of help

I told you if you fallowed your mind
no harm would come your way

But you didn't take my advice
now i'm laughing in your face

Running out of this problem is hard to neglect,
but somehow i can already feel the regret,
its hard for me to gain the pain,
all these time's makes me feel insane,

i feel like im just a castaway,
and there's no more reason for me to stay,
im just trying and waiting to let this pass away,
but how can i ever do it? i'm worrying about it everyday,

when can i find true happiness?,
if you are just giving me loneliness,
everything i've done is full of madness,
i cant escape this world full of sadness,

every time i try to fix it , even gets worst,
i'm ready to make things right , but it never fade's away like a never ending curse,
i can see it through your action,
i just didn't wanna make a reaction,

thinking about it everyday brings back all the memories,
its like i've been through this before, like my past tragedies,
the burden that was hard to forget , i had remembered,
so i tried to be strong, never back downed and surrendered.